Kristen

Grow up! You hurt my theatre. You hurt Me. If I ever see you again, which GOD HELP YOU IF I DO, DON'T TALK TO ME, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT WORTH ANY TIME OF ANYONES THOUGHTS, EMOTIONS, PRAYERS, OR ATTENTION. AND I hope that you can get help. ERASE EVERYTHING THAT INVOLVES ME AND YOU! To save a "friendship" with Greg and Amy you have f*cked over all of us. Are you honest with yourself. Do you know who you have really hurt? You have hurt yourself."I love you guys, I do" You don't know what love is! Truth tells all and you will be judged in the end! Enjoy your relationship with Greg. I hope it is good for you. By the way, How's your hand?

You dirty "vindictive cunt"!

Erase me from your life you bitch!

The position that I am working right now is supposed to end this friday. However due to circumstances they are going to extend my contract. Barb is going to let me know how long. That makes me feel a little bit better. Things are good otherwise. The theatre is starting to pick up in numbers however we are not following the stereotype of counts. Intriguing non the less. Rehearsals are going well. I am really excited about Melissa's wedding. September 17, 2005 is the date. Its going to be a blast!

All I am is a bundle of nerves. I want to know about the job so that i can truely become one with the job. Love the job, make lots of money at the job. I just want to know. Holly meet me at the theatre at 5 with the table cloths I am helping renee set up.

love ya,

kristen

Still tickin. I interviewed for a job at towson U on wednesday. Today I got a call for a second interview. So that is good news. I hope I get my job position filled by Feb 25. I can't afford to not have a job. I almost can't afford to perform in Grease but theatre will keep my spirit alive.


tis all for the present.

Kristen

Hi

I am still alive. In the process of looking for another job so that I can live and still pay bills. Wouldn't that be nice. There are some issues that need to be adressed just so I can get them off my chest. As some friends come and go, Usually there is one that tends to stick around. But lately that has been extremely distant. So I end up feeling more alone than I need to be. We auditioned for Grease and Joseph, but I think I got a little bit of hypothermia last night working in the lobby. Couldn't feel my toes for the longest time. When I woke up this morning, I was warm and didn't want to get out of bed. We had a lot of talent come out last night. It's going to be an amazing show no matter who gets casted.



thats all for now

Kristen

table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td></td><td> You scored as Pissed at the World Cat. And here we have the next serial killer. Try having some cotton candy, it'll make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside, Psycho.

Sometimes when people affect you, you become blind to certain things that have been done for you that you don't realize. Things you wish for or things that you want for other people. I realized today that one thing that I really wanted has happened and prayers have been answered and for that I am really greatful. I found out about George Jones last night, no, not the country singer. A friend of mine that had AIDS. He passed away two weeks ago. All that kept echoing through my mind was when he and I were talking outside. He told me that he didn't want to die. But now that he has, I wonder if he changed his mind. I think that love is one thing that keeps us all living, but love is what embrasses us in death. All the memories of different situations can resolve into something really wonderful. peace. Peace of mind and peace of the heart.

Theatre opened to really good food and happy people I just hope that people will be able to appreciate the gifts.

Sometimes I don't know who my friends are at all. People try and persuade and push and use for personal vindication. I hope that I can really work things out in my head. Each step I take I get fucking plowed back by someone or something and its pissing me off. Mom is trying to get stuff done and all she does is talk about herself and never once asks me how I am doing. I don't know. I need to go get a job. I have no money. I have to wait another 2-3 days for towson because they lost my app. I am getting really frustrated because the longer that I don't work at Towson the longer its going to take. to get paid to pay for any Xmas presents becauseI probably won't get paid until the new year. I have my car payment and rent and I am going to die. Maybe I should just get a real job and stop doing theatre. I don't know I am just rambling now.

I need to just fucking SCREAM!

Writing helps you explore your feelings and so I have decided to start writing alot. Something I know a lot about are friendships. Jordans friendship with me means the world to me and I want to share our experiences for my memory and for the world. I have started writing something. I don't know how long it will be or when I will have a chance to keep writing but I know that I want to write down my memories so I don't loose them. I am going to call it Jordan Siebert from the bench to broadway. I will share some of the best times and some of the worst. It will be an adventure. Mainly just to see if I can do it.

Hedwig closed last night but never fear if you missed it. Miss Hedwig will be returning in January. Minus me but she will be back in full force. We struck the show and then watched the movie. Laughed a lot at how much better that Jordan was as Hedwig. How could I do it better than tony or Lou or John Cammeron Mitchell. But I believe he has. He has created a world for Hedwig and the best part is that I got to share that world every single night. Baltimore Sun called him a force of nature. The world will never be the same as long as Jordan is in it. They broke the mold when they made him and I hope that other people can just take an example out of the mold that Jordan made.

Things in my life are stressful but fun. I am still breathing in and out so that is a start. I hope that the world will finally begin to give me a break. I have worked so very hard for one. "Sometimes the world gives you an inch when you really deserve a mile." Well lets just say I am still waiting for my inch. I hope the world treats you kind and smiles on you everyday

I am just saying that I love my scene with Santa and the infomertial. I had the entire cast of rudolph pretty much peeing and eddie said that it was all he could do to throw up a little

A note on relationships. Sometimes expectations of what the outcome of a certain meetings and impresions can negate themselves when you learn the truth. It can hurt a lot . Falsification of a certain period in me life has turned out to be a huge lie and facade. I hope that you are happy with the facts of leading me on. Why would a person try and really understand situations if that person situation will be a total lie and understanding what had happened ment nothing. * sigh* So beith my life.


on to the next adventure

Kristen